I think i have figured out what makes me so upset about change. Most of the time - I don't have a say in it. Most of the time - my opinion was asked. Most of the time - I have to take whatever is handed to me.

Change isn't exciting or new or adventurous to me (at least not lately), change has been forced upon me and I have to deal with the consequences. I have to pick up the pieces that it left in it's wake.

I have not chosen to leave my past jobs, I have not chosen to have my heart broken, I have not chosen to have my living situation up the air, and I have certainly not chosen to be so overwhelmed by it all.

I want to be excited about a new career path, and a light in my heart, and new roommate... I truly do. And I know that these are decisions that I do have a choice in - so I need to make the right ones for me. I just wish that I had gotten to this position on my own, and not by someone else's hand.