I have a meeting with St. Thomas' Art History department head tomorrow morning. I have nerves. This is just a meeting to see if I like the place, the classes, the teachers; to make sure I understand everything that I need to get started in enrollment and on the application; to make sure that I am not throwing away $1600 on a whim.

I really hope that I like everything I hear/see. But what if I don't? Then I have to come up with a new plan... I have to start all over trying to figure this thing out. Ugh - that would suck.

Oh, but what if I like it? Then I have to start being really nervous about if I can handle being back in school; can I deal with being in a classroom again and how will I be at assignments and writing and being a student? What if I get in there and I am really not that great of a student - that I try really hard, but I am just not smart enough to handle the graduate work? Ugh - that would suck too.

Ok... who thought this grad school thing was a good idea?