Trust

"Trust that you are where you need to be."

That was the one mantra that Ella, my teacher at Candlelight Flow, said tonight that I actually remembered. Hmmm... I wonder if that is significant? Probably - I need to stop all the spirals (although they have lessened a great deal, they still happen occasionally) and just trust in what is happening and not try to readjust the truth.

Candlelight Flow was a great way to end the weekend and start the new week. It was hard without being nauseating, it was hot without being sweltering, it was challenging and slow. There were lots of stretches and poses I had not done before which was exciting to try to accomplish a new feat.

I have realized that I am used to being very good at things that I try to do. Most athletic things (besides running) come pretty easy to me. I often feel frustrated in class because this is not coming easy, I am not the best in class, and I have no idea what I am doing the majority of the time. But I am really happy that I want to be those things - i want to be good and talented and bendy.

The only thing that made class a little weird tonight was the crazy red head from the first class I took. She is obviously an actress or a singer because she does nothing that she is told and likes to pull focus by making lots of weird noises. She would do poses that were similar to what were doing, but then they would evolve into these crazy bendy pretzels. She was right behind me and it took all my effort and concentration not to punch her in her curly red mop. That is not zen like at all. But she put her feet in my face during corpse pose... yoga whore.